It´s not me, It´s my hormones!

He is having more success than me... e is is more beautiful than me, smarter than me, cooler, more humorous, more loving, more charismatic than me, richer... Because I don't think I have achieve what I wanted to achieve... Because he is so popular and I'm not... Because I'm afraid if I will ever get there... I don't know how he thinks and is difficult to learn more about him having in mind he does not want to date me. Is there any other way to learn more about him without falling in love and hopefully ending up being him the one who really wants to meet me instead of me being the one who wants to meet him?? It hardly happen to have to push people to meet me, whats wrong here?  I want to talk to him more, at least one more time, I need to know the truth, the truth on why not me, whats wrong? Maybe I'm the wrong one thinking there is something wrong with me and thats why he is being pushed away... Have you ever felt like this? Please share your story on t

Article written a while ago but hey I forgot to press publish! Sure you have at least once felt like it in your life - STUPID, TONTA, IDIOT! I feel like it right know. Everyone wants something from me, money, time, a fuck, something which sometimes makes sense, but other times you feel absorbed and used. This is our projection, I don't blame you or anyone who is involved in the stories I'm about to tell as I know I and only I create my reality but some people help you create a good one others help you create a shitty one. The only good thing about me feeling like shit is that I'm here now, sharing all these with you all as I have none to share it with or none who inspire me enough to do so with (or maybe I just don't want to bother them... and I prefer to bother you ;). Thank you for reading. Usually I write articles once I have learnt something, this article is hot, in the way that I'm feeling the pain right now! Business wise. On top of my main bu

I have been bad. Very bad. With men. Fuc*! Shit! Yep,  Not is not about fuc*ing, or maybe it is! Awww anyway I don’t feel good about it. It feels like I have gone against my values, I have cheated myself! I have never believed in cheating and I have always said the truth, whatever it is. I have been influenced by many people. MY MUM. She is all over my head more than I would like sometimes. I don’t think cheating is good, that’s true, that’s what I think, that’s how I feel. Yes I have done it, a few times, against my values. But wait a minute, is this right? What are my values? There is a new side of me, a new side that says: Live the present and live it fully, whatever that means. And another one that says: Sometimes you don’t need to say everything, especially if it’s going to hurt somebody (That's more like the voice of my friends which I have never been too sure about). How natural is it to stick with one person? I think it’s VERY natural when it happens naturally. What

Here I am on a Sunday with no-one to meet, and by no-one, I mean guys, obviously!
 Yes, beautiful intelligent women also struggle to have sex, (maybe not generally) but I’m talking about quality sex, sex with emotions, with connection and meaning! Sex that is beautiful, that is serious – that’s the type of sex I would like to experience, and I would like YOU to experience, every-time you have sex with someone. It’s like connecting with the universe, like becoming part of everything, becoming one person, and experiencing life in its deepest way. Ufff. It’s even hard to talk about. My whole body reacts as if I was almost there, we’re not even close really but it sounded good to say! Lol.

 Most of you probably think about sex but, unfortunately the wrong type of sex – not the deep, meaningful one I’m talking about. This is for one simple reason – most people have never experienced it! Research - The simple fact that a great percentage of women do not really enjoy sex gives me this

I have just found this somewhere in my room... I go to sleep crying, I wake up crying, I meditate crying and I look at other guys crying. I miss you so much. I think about you constantly , shout at myself to stop it, shout at myse lf not to text you even though its what I fancy the most. I want  to know about you, how you are, how you feel, what you are doing. This is painful, or at least, I'm allowing it to be painful. I'm writing because somehow it feels like I'm talking to you, pleasing that need of having you. You are awesome the way you are, you are awesome the way you kiss me, and the way you look at me; thank you for these fantastic moments that I will always keep with me and will bring them when needed. Want to know how you are, how you feel, what you do. I miss you crazy. I cry inside, I feel sad and I know it sounds depressing but really feels as if I had an arm missing, something its missing, you are missing. You maybe hating me right no

God!! So yesterday I was SO horny all day long, I was like OMG! OMG! I need to procreate, lol. Then today, I feel like – who needs a guy? What for? Sex? Ppfff that’s not something I am even interested in. God! How can women deal with this stuff without getting mad? Actually, we do get mad, that was the whole point about me writing right? ‘Whateva'! Hello guys! I'm so happy to be here with you writing about my hormones and about how crazy the world is. Today, as you have already noticed, is all about hormones – such a new topic! First of all, I want to apologize in the name of all women in the world, sorry! Uff as soon as I'm writing this, I'm like, no! I'm not sorry, this is it guys, women have different hormonal changes because we are supposed to have kids – every month we get ready for it and that's great! Is it? Oh ok, there they come, again with these mental contradictions. Does is happen to you girls? You start talking, then suddenly you realise everything